Self Crucifixion Stainless steel, hand cut, custom framed.
This one isn't for sale.
I started cutting this piece when I was deep in it. Pills, heroin, fentanyl — the whole story. I couldn't finish it because I wasn't finished yet. It took almost a decade, hundreds of hours, and more fresh starts than I can count. Every time I stripped the finish back to bare metal and started over it meant something different. The cuts stayed. Everything else got rebuilt.
Derek Hess made a drawing that I couldn't stop thinking about as a kid. I didn't know why then. I do now. It's about the weight people carry — the cross we build for ourselves and drag around like we invented suffering. Someone already took that. We just keep picking it back up anyway.
The day I finished this piece I had been truly clean for the first time in years. Not managing it. Not white knuckling it. Done. That's what this is. It's not a trophy. It's a receipt.
Self Crucifixion Stainless steel, hand cut, custom framed.
This one isn't for sale.
I started cutting this piece when I was deep in it. Pills, heroin, fentanyl — the whole story. I couldn't finish it because I wasn't finished yet. It took almost a decade, hundreds of hours, and more fresh starts than I can count. Every time I stripped the finish back to bare metal and started over it meant something different. The cuts stayed. Everything else got rebuilt.
Derek Hess made a drawing that I couldn't stop thinking about as a kid. I didn't know why then. I do now. It's about the weight people carry — the cross we build for ourselves and drag around like we invented suffering. Someone already took that. We just keep picking it back up anyway.
The day I finished this piece I had been truly clean for the first time in years. Not managing it. Not white knuckling it. Done. That's what this is. It's not a trophy. It's a receipt.
